lately this afternoon, someone ask me "cry in front of millions of strangers or cry in front of everybody who knew you?" well, i chose the first one, and everybody just react, "whoa, you're totally.. umm.. the weirdest" haha.. and i just laugh everything they said to me.. afterwards, i told them, "that's the reason why i chose it". yeah, i didnt get it.

what and why? i would rather cry in front of millions of strangers, yeah, because they dont know me. i will understand if they will react like, "so?", "whatever?!", "ehem, wot er u doin?", "haha", "get off", or whatever reaction it might be, because i know, they dont know me so they wont understand why im doing such. judge me, whatever and however they want to, it wont affect me coz if i am in there foot, i might too, as well, be disgusted with someone who cries in front of me with so unknown reasons. i mean, is understandable, BUT, in front of EVERYBODY who knew you well, its already expected THERE will be a someone who will also react as bad as the reactions above. and it will hurt me more. right? eventhough not vocally, i know there will always be someone who will think me as a big damn girl.

well, just sharing..

haha.. tom. will be my first prelim examination.. and that's computer programming followed by college algebra and intensive math. whew! i know, blogging is not the issue, the issue is review now. haha..