Sometimes, im asking myself, who the heck am i? and please dont be stupid to answer to.. youre lyka, i know that morron.. its just that i dont know who the real me, i dont know myself.. i may know my characterististics but i dont know me. someone told me, describing yourself would help, last night i tried...
ako si lyka, babaeng mahaba ang buhok, palakaibigan daw ako sabi ng mga kakilala ko, mabait, mataray at matakaw. lagi akong tumatawa kahit walang dahilan. laging nakangiti kht nasasaktan, walang pakialam sa sinasabi ng iba, basta ako gusto ko lang - makaharap sa computer tuwing gusto ko, napakaencouraging ko daw, sabi nila, dahil positive daw ako mag-isip, maingay ako, minsan mahiyain, minsan naman napakakapal ng muka, mayabang daw ako minsan, at moody ren pala at higit sa lahat matapang. ano pa ba? un lang ang kilala nila sken? o un lng ang gusto kong kilala nila saken?
how about my other half? ung isa ko pang side... well, i should say all of the above isnt really true. hindi ako matapang, para akong uod na ayaw maging butterfly, i just want to hide in a certain place where i could still breathe. i am the kind of girl na laging umiiyak, yes, im crying without any sounds, im crying because i always feel that im the least loved person. i am a girl who always laugh because i dont want others see i am sad.. there is this moment in my life wherein i could hear someone in my mind saying not so good words, i overcome it before, but now, he's coming back and i feel so sick about it, i feel like there's someone else inside me.. i am so pessimistic, as a matter of fact, im not a positive thinker, minsan iba ang sinasabi ng utak ko sa sinasabi ng bibig ko... im the girl who doesnt feel comfortable with her mom, i dont know ren.. but i love her, i just dont know why im feeling so so far away from her. my friends? i dont know if im a true friend. coz im hiding something inside me from them...
the outcome? nothing, i still dont know me, there is something inside me, i want to know, and i dont know what that "something" is..do you get it? i may describe me, but i dont know me. and no one will.
Mormom girl July 20, 2006 10:16 AM PDT hi, i'm Mich. i don't actually know you but i'm touched with your blog. i wish somehow i could help. understanding who we are brings self-respect. if you don't feel loved, at least love yourself. not an abnormally developed self-esteem that becomes haughtiness, conceit, or arrogance, but a righteous self-respect that might be defined as “belief in one’s own worth, worth to God, and worth to man.” always remember that we are all sons & daughters of God.
i would also want to share to you one song i've learned in the church that truly describes who we really are. here it goes:
“I am a child of God,
And he has sent me here,
Has given me an earthly home
With parents kind and dear.
“I am a child of God,
And so my needs are great;
Help me to understand His words
Before it grows too late.
“I am a child of God,
Rich blessings are in store;
If I but learn to do His will
I’ll live with him once more.
(Chorus)
“Lead me, guide me, walk beside me,
Help me find the way.
Teach me all that I must do
To live with him some day.”
What a difference it would make if we really sensed our relationship to God, our Heavenly Father, our relationship to Jesus Christ, our Savior and our relationship to each other.
Now, I trust that I might have been an instrument to you and others who have not yet known such knowledge, something to stimulate some thinking as to who you are. and that I may have stirred up within your soul the determination to begin to show an increased self-respect. I would suggest you to say again and again to yourself, “I am a daughter of God” and by so doing, begin today to live closer to those ideals which will make your life happier and more fruitful because of a realization of who you are.
Good luck, sistah! someone loves you so much more than anybody else and its our Savior, Jesus Christ. Trust him ü
alona May 17, 2006 08:44 AM PDT wag kang magalala, basta maging masya ka lang, hindi rin lang naman ikaw eh pati ako minsan naiisip ko yan...
ok always be happy =)
din-din May 17, 2006 01:45 AM PDT don't worry... di ka nag-iisa.. and i think it's normal for us to feel that way every now and then.. nakaka-tulong yun to make us realize things about us and improve the "other part" of us na medyo tagilid. heheh..
bianca May 16, 2006 04:27 PM PDT aww. lyka. wag na malungkot. ang bawat tao, may ka-UNIQUE-an. at yun yung nag papaspecial sakin.
and your not the least loved person. yeah siguro hindi ko naman alam yung nangyayari mismo sa life mo pero... yung sense na andito ka sa earth na pinanganak ka.. SOBRANG love na yun sa tin. k? :)
kaya wag ng malungkot :)
Alex May 16, 2006 04:24 PM PDT aaarrgghh...ate lyka..i know how u feel...minsan feeling ko walang nagmamahal saken..ung tipong ganun..dati pa nga nasa stage ako na i was so depressed pero nobody knew it kasi i was smiling and laughing outside *sikret lang naten un ha* ..pero deep inside. i just wanted to kill myself...pero ewan..okay na naman ako ngaun...buti na lang naimbento ang 'friends'...kaya wag ka na ma sad...kahit di tau mxado nagkakausap labs naman kita...super rami kaya ng nagmamahal sau..tsaka lagi naman Siyang nandyan....
be strong...
ingatz lagi ate...
labs u..
God Bless..
sk8 May 16, 2006 12:42 PM PDT girl.. it is really hard to identify one's self. we can't define ourselves in a box.you'll eventually know yourself more in time.. don't hurry :) All that I can assure to you is that you are a good person. *and I am not making bola..*
You are not the least loved person.. Because if your are, you would't grow 170 cm tall of what your are today *just exaggerating :)*
Your parents loved you the greatest. That I am sure too. :)
Don't be sad na okay? I, your blogmate likes you for who you are :)
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I am Lyka a girl who stands a hundred and seventy centimetres. a girl who hates dogs yet loves puppies. :D i am breathing since 09.30.89 I am stupid enough to be hated yet pretty enough to be loved. i am a vegetarian not because i love vegetables but rather in a reason: i want them be off in this world. i am strong according to the OTHERS who doesnt really know me. I love to laugh yet always crying. word of hope? yes, i do have one HEHE thats it.