i dont know, what im gonna write down. sorry, just this is just a waste of time..

actually, i just figured out some good ideas if you want to take suicide.. yeah.. first thing to do is, of course, be ready for your going out of breath.. never think twice.. once you think of it, go and do it for you might not be able to take suicide if you'll refer to other person about what you want  to do.. yeah, they will definitely stop you.

second.. make a great note.. of course, start it with the date then the word Dear Blah Blah, write all your miseries and regrets.. so when you die, it will not be hard for your family and friends to look for the reasons why you did it.

third.. look for a good time.. yeah, the best time is 9:00pm to midnight.. (well, for me) but other people commit it by morning, you know why, its because no one will think that you're going to commit suicide by that time, i mean its unexpected.. yeah.. but actually it depends on your schedule.. so its up to you..

fourth.. go and have some money and eat all kinds of food in the whole wide world.. yeah.. its better if you will eat at home, just use the phone and ask for delivery.. its better..

fifth... now, when you're already full, go upstairs (or wherever your room is) then lock the door, then sleep hangang sa bangungutin ka. yeah.. that's much nicer than laslas ng pulso style.. right? and of course never ever forget to sleep with your note, so it wont be hard for them to look for it.

well.. i hope it helps.. no, just joking. this is so so bad of me.

flash na nga lng ang kaligayahan ko, tinanggal pa ng friendster, bat naman cla ganun.. :( hay anyway, today is monday and there is no classes due to storm, hnd ko nga ramdam na my bagyo e, nakakaasar tlga, gus2 ko pa naman pumasok ngaun... well, prelim examination week is over.. midterm na.. and i guess, the results of my exams are good enough. :) hay.. im going to study MORE in my math subject.. or else.. omg..

anyways, im really not in the mood today.. sana nga hindi na lng nabuo ang araw na to.

lately this afternoon, someone ask me "cry in front of millions of strangers or cry in front of everybody who knew you?" well, i chose the first one, and everybody just react, "whoa, you're totally.. umm.. the weirdest" haha.. and i just laugh everything they said to me.. afterwards, i told them, "that's the reason why i chose it". yeah, i didnt get it.

what and why? i would rather cry in front of millions of strangers, yeah, because they dont know me. i will understand if they will react like, "so?", "whatever?!", "ehem, wot er u doin?", "haha", "get off", or whatever reaction it might be, because i know, they dont know me so they wont understand why im doing such. judge me, whatever and however they want to, it wont affect me coz if i am in there foot, i might too, as well, be disgusted with someone who cries in front of me with so unknown reasons. i mean, is understandable, BUT, in front of EVERYBODY who knew you well, its already expected THERE will be a someone who will also react as bad as the reactions above. and it will hurt me more. right? eventhough not vocally, i know there will always be someone who will think me as a big damn girl.

well, just sharing..

haha.. tom. will be my first prelim examination.. and that's computer programming followed by college algebra and intensive math. whew! i know, blogging is not the issue, the issue is review now. haha..

may mas sasarap pa ba sa trolli gummi candy Octupus? wala na ciempre... hahaha.. grabe.. ganda naman ng daloi na aking caleJ buhay ngaun.. aun.. hehehe.. masaia.. GRABE. ang bawat oras ay aking totoong inienjoy. masaya dahil araw-araw na kukumpleto ang aking araw. bwahahahaha! shemai, wala naman napapatunguhan mga sinasabi ko ditu e.. hahaha..

prelims na namen sa monday.. actually sa tuesday pala.. hahahaha... hangang friday un bale. tas my pasok pa ako ng sabado dhl sa intro01 ko.. hahaha :) nakatuwa naman.. pero..

kahapon.. kami ay nglong test sa math.. huhu.. ung una nmng long test.. aba, almost perfect na ako.. 2 lng mali ku dun e. haha.. pro ung kahapon.. huhu.. mukang inde maganda ung mggng result.. huhu.. pro ok lng... sa iba naman naming subject e.. super maganda ang standing ng grades ku.. wahaha.. sana tuloy tuloy na ito at patuloy na akong magsagana sa katalinuhan.. wahaha!!

meron akong kaklase na sobrang kamuka nia tong smiley na ito >> ;-) hahaha! ang pangalan nia ay dave.. hahaha.. tas my clasmeit naman akong kakabirhday lng.. si erroL.. api burtdei.. at ciempre sa aking ex-best friend na friend na friend ko paren, kaso inde na kme classmate.. si lea! woo! api burdei den..

ngaun naman.. ako ay aliw na aliw sa kantang wordplay ni jason mraz.. mas maganda tlga un kesa dun sa geek in the pink. diba?! wahahaha.. anyway.. naiinlab na tlga ako kay mr. mraz << huwaw.. Mr. A-Z ung album nia diba?! haha.. from mraz un, hnd ba halata.. hahahaha
 

haha.. so whats with the weird title?! haha.. in * << i dunno.. well, mixed emotions.. haha!! the schooling.. yeah, haha.. its nice.. prelims na namin next next week! woo! good lak sken.. haha.. aun.. ano bang happenings.. haha.. my brother is sick.. hope he get well soon..  okay.. flash back muna tau. hehe

friday, 07 July 2006
isang nakakapagod na araw.. panira tlga.. haha! panandalian akong nastranded sa bundok na aking tinitirhaN.. pasaway xe.. may bagy0.. haha.. pero nakapasok pren aku! woo! sipag ko! haha.. by lunch time, napagtripan na naman aku ng mga butihin kong mga kebigan.. hay aun, kawawa si kirk e, pinudpod ko ng suntok at hila sa buhok.. haha!! kasalanan nia un! haha.. aun, as if naman nakarelate kau nu?! haha.. ganito xe yan, lunch time.. nilapag ku ung wallet ku, aun, kinuha nia.. hahaha.. nung binalik nia sken, wala ung laman.. haha.. basta un na un.. woo! nung hapon, napagalaman ku na ung laman ay na kay reinwald.. pasaway tlga.. haha! nakakatuwa sila.. may paluha luha pang nalalaman si kirk.. umiyak, hahaha! kinagabihan.. try-out ni angel.. woo!!! grabe, panalo xa.. yeah! GO ANGEL! GO ANGEL! hehehe..

saturday, 08 July 2006
nakakatuwa.. ang aga ko gumising..  4:00am pa lng gising na aku.. woo! aun, ngaun ako ay magsisimula na uli ng panibagong buhay.. yeah! kaya kakain muna ako for breakfast.. so that means.. iwan ku muna kau... bukas na lng ulet! woo! 

waaa! grabe.. i hate na tlga myself.. whenver i go to school its already expected na may nakalimutan ako, its either my id, my reflection papers, my assignments or emy baon... waaa! asar tlga no?! haha.. araw-araw yan, at naku, malala pa kung 7am ang pasok namin at ang makalimutan ko ay ang aking butihing pasaporte sa skuL.. tadaa! ang aking dakilang id.. hayy.. san ka pa?! grabe.. pinudpod ko na ng mga sticky notes ang aming buong bahay.. my nakakalimutan pariN ako.. anlupet tlgang tadhana.. i dont know.. sakit ko na tlga ATA to.

okay.. actually i really love my stay at college! woo! ansaia saia.. lalo pa ngaun na marami na akong kaclose at lahat na ata ay nakakausap ko ng matino.. :)) actually.. im doing good at academics... BUT.. haha.. pagdating naman sa sports.. banban ang kaibigan niu.. woo! my friends are doing badminton... haha.. ako? nakaw.. panira.. haha.. last tuesday we ran the school's oval.. 2 laps for 6 minutes and 41 seconds.. haha.. nilalagnat lagnat pa ako nian... at may halong collapse collapse pa.. haha.. anyway.. the oval? standard tlga ung size nia. panira tlga.. asar.. ung size tlga na pinaglalaruan ng mga katulad ni athletes.. hayy... haha.. nakakatuwa, afterward i tried drinking at the fountain.. panira tlga.. hindi ako marunong.. haha.. ung tubig napunta lahat sa mukha ko. haha.. prohibited xe sa aming magkakapatid kaya noob ako sa mga ganyang bagay.. haha..

actually.. its already late, i really wanna have some sleep now due to long test at sining.. na hate na hate ko naman.. asar.. gusto ko ng tatakan ng WIKA sa muka ang aming guro. haha.. ansama e no? haha.. amboring naman tlga xe.. mas enjoy pa ako sa math kesa dito. :)) haha... so.. hangang dito muna.. palam at palam!

okay.. haha! sorry... i broke my promise.. i forgot to blog yesterday! hay naku naman, ikaw ba naman ay umuwi ng 10PM e.. iisipin mo pa bang magblog? haha.. auN.. i think you already get it.. haha! sometimes.. there is an automatic FULL SHUTDOWN na nangyayari sa akUN.. haha.. i dont know why.. whenever i see a bed, naku.. lundag na yan.. sabay pikit ng mata. haha! things are goody-goody.. the tests are answerable.. haha.. naturaL!! pangtao tlga ung mga test unlike before nung HS.. e ni isang letter e wala akong maisulat.. haha.. so bad me, hindi xe nakikinig!! haha.. good for me.. i listen and participate now in class.. i love MATH! well.. ngaun. haha! i love COMPROG! i love COMAPPLI!! i love REED! i love FOC! haha.. well.. ihateSINING.. haha.. filipino? haha! i dont know.. because there is another student in the class (he's not our classmate, back subject ata nia to).. he always raise his hands and didnt even give any chance for the others to recite. i hate him.. haha.. bad tlga e no? haha!

i just want all of you to know that I LOVE my STAY at college.. so much better than HS.. well, just being frank. i really love my life, my new friends and my new surrounding. i enjoy it. though..

there is this one classmate of mine. he is a HE. ok? haha.. i hate him. haha.. the only one thing that makes my stay at college miserable. the reason? he doesnt know how to keep a secret and he even embarrased ME at the front of the class, buti na lng tlga at makapal ang pagmumuka ko at nalagpasan ko un. sometimes, i wish him to DIE, masagasaan sana siya ng pinakamalaking truck sa buong mundo at lumuwa ang mata at mga laman loob niya tas uuurin na siya ron at kakainin ng mga aso!!  waah! i hate him.. just being FRANK. i really DO HATE HIM. hindi rin naman halata no?

haha! anyway.. i have so many things to do.. haha! so bye bye now fellas..

haha..i almost forgot that i own a blog.. okay.. im sorry for not blogging or even visiting your blogs for almost half-a-month.. sorry, sorry!! haha.. badtrip tlga.. college is going smoothly and everything is still under my control, well, sort of.. haha! my classmates are fine and they really make me smile in times of trouble.. yeah.. i gain enough confidence to face them all and do some unnatural things like singing in front of the class, sharing, playing and even some sort of acting.. whatever you call that.. in short.. im participating a lot now! yeah.. i know, the so-so-bad-me-attitudes is still working out.. and as far as i can do.. im holding them back. yeah.. for 3 weeks of chatting with my new classmates i already know now who is the right resources and those who can be trusted with damn secrets. haha! unfortunately, i already have my blacklist now.. wooo..! sorry na lng sa mga nakalagay dun.

the lessons are quite easy though math is still umm-umm and PE is a great PAHIRAP haha! so many long quizzes.. so many things to do.. NAKAKAPAGOD.. haha! kaya ko to! AJA! woo!

promise! ill blog tom and the next next day! bye bye fellas...

okay.. so what's with the super first day experience? haha... nothing special really happen.. i found some new good friends.. actually my section is bcs12 and i think as of now, we're all in good condition, though some of them are still total strangers for me. haha.. yeah, i know.. thats already expected since we're all from different schools. umm.. so whats the news? haha.. im currently enjoying the company of angelica.. yeah, and florence and migs.. woo.. new friends.. hahaha.. almost all of the girls are already known.. haha.. yet the boys... umm.. still on process.. haha! FYI: maybe 1/16 of the class are girls.. so its expected that you already know how boys dominate the class.. and yes.. they are too serious for me to handle.. haha.. maybe after some time ill be able to have some chit chat with them.. i need to find the right resources! ahahaha! umm.. but you know what? i think theyre too short.. hahaha.. yeah.. or is it me that is so so tall? hmm... what do you expect with a 5'7 girl plus a 2 inch heels.. hahaha.. okay... umm.. actually the campus is too big.. huhu.. and its really so so hard for me to walk to the next classroom coz its miles away.. haha.. exage naman.. hahha.. but.. i swear (bad girl!!) it is!! haha.. i think i should be studying now.. so.. bye bye fellas!